Today is full of 100% pure suck.  I’m making one of the biggest decisions that I’ve probably made in the last five years; I’m leaving.  I’m leaving what I’ve become comfortable with.  I’m leaving memories and laughter; tears and disappointment.  I’m leaving to try and find who I am or who I was becoming.  I do know that I’m in love with this man but I also have come to the realization that we are not “meant to be” at this point in our lives.  I’ve accepted the fact that I carry way too much compassion and love for him to deal with at this spot in our fate or destiny.  I’m fully aware that I’m full of flaws just like any other human being.  The difference, however, is that I know what mine are and I’ve done everything to try and fix them to make him happy, but no matter what I do and no matter how much I lie to myself; it’s not good enough.  I’m not happy.  I’m not about to list all of the things that I’ve been unhappy with in our relationship because some things need to be realized on their own.  He is a wonderful person and has the most potential out of anyone I know to do great things and to be an amazing significant other but right now isn’t the time for him and I to shine.  

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