I want to find something that I’m passionate about. I need to find my calling, my passion, my desire. If I ever had it, I’ve lost it. I have ideas of what I want to be when I “grow up” but how to I know which path to choose? Will it be the right path? Am I passionate about them? I don’t know. The last two weeks (not to mention last six months) I feel like I’ve thrown myself into a downward spiral. I quit my great paying job at DK and moved back to Grand Forks. I started a new job and started out really liking it but about three weeks ago, it was TERRIBLE for so many reasons that I don’t want to explain. I up and quit. I applied for college at UND for the Spring 2013 semester. I’ve started back up at a childcare center that I used to work at last time I lived in the area but at a very low wage. How am I supposed to pay bills? Now what? I feel empty and without. It’s actually and odd feeling and I’m not fond of it at all. My next blog will be about my interests as a way to weed through my future. I’m 22 and need to get my ass on the roll. I want to settle down, buy a home, have a career, and family. I want to move on from this limbo early 20-somethings shit. It’s draining. I didn’t live the “college experience” for what ever reason so I have nothing to grow out of. I just want to fast forward in my dull, blah world.