I want to find something that I’m passionate about.  I need to find my calling, my passion, my desire.  If I ever had it, I’ve lost it.  I have ideas of what I want to be when I “grow up” but how to I know which path to choose?  Will it be the right path? Am I passionate about them? I don’t know. The last two weeks (not to mention last six months) I feel like I’ve thrown myself into a downward spiral.  I quit my great paying job at DK and moved back to Grand Forks.  I started a new job and started out really liking it but about three weeks ago, it was TERRIBLE for so many reasons that I don’t want to explain.  I up and quit.  I applied for college at UND for the Spring 2013 semester.  I’ve started back up at a childcare center that I used to work at last time I lived in the area but at a very low wage.  How am I supposed to pay bills? Now what?  I feel empty and without.  It’s actually and odd feeling and I’m not fond of it at all.  My next blog will be about my interests as a way to weed through my future.  I’m 22 and need to get my ass on the roll.  I want to settle down, buy a home, have a career, and family.  I want to move on from this limbo early 20-somethings shit.  It’s draining.  I didn’t live the “college experience” for what ever reason so I have nothing to grow out of.  I just want to fast forward in my dull, blah world.