Series Finale.

I just wanted to take a quick second to say thank you to anyone and everyone that checked out my blog over the last few weeks since I began my “12 Days of Christmas” series. Before the series began, I was averaging a whopping 3 views per post thanks to the very few devoted readers I have. Since then, my average has octupled! That’s 8 times as many views as normal. My blog peaked at 56 views in one day on 12/22! So thank you to everyone that took time out of your scrolling to click on my posts!

My stats will likely go down again since I won’t be posting to FB after this series. I don’t usually post my personal blog because I’ve been bitten twice too many times by the sharks of the social media world. I enjoy writing on many different levels. Sometimes I like to stick to a topic and sometimes I like to bitch and moan about life. In the past, I probably was more personal than some were comfortable with involving certain aspects of my life. That is the primary reason I stopped posting to Facebook and sharing my voice with the people I knew because people really can be assholes, myself included.

That, however, is besides the point. This Christmas season, no matter how hard I tried, didn’t feel like Christmas. And per my unofficial poll, it was a mutual feeling throughout the small population of people I know. I attribute it to a few different things:

  • 1. The season was short. Thanksgiving was late in the month of November so Christmas really only had 3-4 weeks to happen and become everything we dream of.
  • 2. The weather. It’s been awfully mild this year. The last few years have actually been quite warm but this year we had little to no snow..anywhere.
  • And 3. This one is more personal but it just didn’t feel like Christmas at home. We didn’t put everything up this year because we moved into our apartment in November and we didn’t host my families celebration either. So it kind of felt..bleh.

I do have to say though, because of my self-mandated writing assignment, I began to think about the Christmas season outside of the box. Instead of focussing on hurrying up and buying everyone the best gifts which isn’t what Christmas is supposed to be about; I tried my best to appreciate the finer things that this holiday season has to offer. My mom being selfless and donating goods to the homeless shelter, Channing and I quietly watching a wintertime parade. Traveling to see family and seeing our nieces and nephews. It was a very nice but short holiday season.

Of course, as always, I wish I could have done more. I wish time and finances had allowed us to go to Jayde’s Christmas choir concert and to bring Duane to the Holiday Train in Thief River. I wish I could have spent some real quality time with both of my brothers and watch more Christmas-y shows. I wish we could have done a little more and gave to the poor. The great thing about all of this is that life isn’t over. There is still time to do and to give. To visit and to see. There’s more time than we even know what to do with so as long as it’s not wasted, the “I wishes” will become “I haves.”

I hope that you took time this Christmas season to enjoy it instead of stress over it. I hope that you received and gave everything that you had planned on including love, good fortune, and happiness.

As previously mentioned, I probably won’t be posting my personal blog to Facebook again for awhile unless I feel that I have a really good story or something to share simply because I don’t want to crowd peoples Facebook feeds. Feel free to comment, like, and share all you want. I really enjoy hearing your feedback. Stay tuned for an even better year then all the years so far! And thank you, again.

7th Day Of Christmas: St. Nick’s

‘Tis the day after the Fast Family Christmas. I’m a little behind (late) with writing yesterday and today’s blog because we’ve been spending time with family and traveling. It’s okay though, I’m sure the faithful three people who read this will understand.

Crouching Nick + Katie

Crouching Nick + Katie

Yesterday my brother Nick and his girlfriend Katie hosted Christmas for the first time. It was an eventful trip up there. Our GPS took us on a pretty slippery yet scenic route. But we couldn’t get there before I got a bloody nose mid-drive and on the interstate. Talk about multi-tasking. I wouldn’t recommend it.

Nick and Katie made ham and mashed potatoes (two of my favorites) along with some chicken and lefse. My mom brought a cheese ball and crackers and we had an arrangement of different desserts including my grandmas family-famous fudge.

Logan + A Little Bit Of Tania

Logan + A Bit Of Tania

We visited, ate dinner, opened gifts, and played a couple games. Overall, we had a pretty good time. It’s really nice to be able to have everyone under one roof which sadly doesn’t happen often anymore because we’re all growing up and spreading our wings.

My favorite part of the afternoon and early evening was watching It’s A Wonderful Life headlining Jimmy Stewart. My family insists I have (but I haven’t) seen the movie; until last night. I guess if I have, my memory is just about as bad as my dads – who, by the way, doesn’t remember going to the movie Click featuring Adam Sandler or RV starring the late Robin Williams. We went to both of those films as a family!

My brother had the colorized version of IAWL. I was only half paying attention at first but towards the middle, the movie pulled me in. It was a great movie and Channing and I are planning on watching it again this week before the end of the Christmas season.

Dad + Grandma Rita

Dad + Grandma Rita

I really wish we could all be a little closer. It seems that as we grow older life moves faster. Time slips away and pretty soon you don’t quite know who is who anymore. I love my family more than anything else in the world but each time I visit with my brothers, I get a feeling that I don’t like. An awareness that makes me feel like I don’t know them like I should. We’re still very close but nowhere near as close as we were just two or three years ago seeing each other every single day.

Reflecting on our drive home this afternoon it makes me want to appreciate moments like Christmas even more than usual. I chose to let a couple small things irritate me this weekend not only at family gatherings but in regular, everyday life and I need to quit that. It’s a waste of time to get bothered by little things. I’ll still do it, probably for the rest of my life just because that’s who I am but I don’t need to let it alter my mood or attitude.

My Beautiful Mom

My Beautiful Mom

This morning my parents took Channing, Nick, and myself out to breakfast. It was a nice send off before we parted ways. I know I’ll see my mom in the next month or so but I don’t know when I’ll see Nick or Logan next. Thinking about this, it circles back to a previous post I wrote about a year or so ago – holding onto the past. I sometimes catch myself living in the past thinking that the past was so much better or so much easier then it is now. Friendships, relationships, sibling-hood, everything. Everything was so much better but life happens. We have to deal with it and evolve. Evolve into an even better past than what we thought was already the best past.

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Channing + Me

With that being said, thanks to Nick and Katie for hosting Christmas. To Grandma Rita for coming to Christmas and brining your legendary fudge. To mom and dad for breakfast, the gifts, and the unconditional love. To Logan and Tania for visiting and making me laugh. And to Channing, for getting creative when my face was gushing blood. Merry Christmas to us. I hope that whatever happens and wherever we go in the year 20-15, that we’ll always have each other and never to forget to share our best memories with each other always. ❤

 

A New Series.

There is so much that I want to write about about and at the very same time there’s nothing to say. I’m a thinker. My gears are constantly turning. It’s like my brain is shape-shifting in ways that I don’t even know how to explain.

Oh, were the days when you could walk around with a hand held recorder to record all your thoughts. I mean, we still have it sure – it’s called a phone. In order to record anything you have to swipe to unlock, swipe to find the app, wait for your phone OR the app to stall and then load…do I need to continue or do you get the point?

My newest thought was to do a “12 Days of Christmas” series on my blog. When I looked that up, I came across some new information. The “12 Days of Christmas” actually starts on Christmas Day and runs through January 5th. Am I the only one to not have known that? My entire life I was under the assumption that December 25th was the last day, day twelve.

Sticking to my original assumption though, I’m doing it my way. Day 1 will be December 14th because that only makes sense – the 12 days leading up to Christmas. Obviously.

I have a few reasons for pursuing this. The first being that I’ve been so busy trying to manage my second blog that this one has kind of taken an undeserved hit. In a perfect situation, I’d obviously have only one blog. One central location for readers to find me. But that’s not the case. I have so much invested into this blog that I don’t want to let it go and I won’t be posting any of my random, no subject rants (like this one) on there anyways.

I have (well had) a few plans for this blog to begin with because I haven’t been making a very good effort to write. Writers block doesn’t seem to be a problem..Netflix does. Orange Is The New Black anyone? Talk about an addiction. I finished it in less then a week and now I’m on to my next fix: House of Cards.

Damnit, Netflix.

So stay tuned everyone. The self-required “12 Days of Christmas” series begins on December 14th.