2014 Annual Report.

WordPress sent me an annual site report for my blog. I watch my stats about as often as I post but this was pretty cool to get. Check out below and click the link to see more. Thank you again for everyone that followed me on my journey of life this year!

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 1,800 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 30 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

Series Finale.

I just wanted to take a quick second to say thank you to anyone and everyone that checked out my blog over the last few weeks since I began my “12 Days of Christmas” series. Before the series began, I was averaging a whopping 3 views per post thanks to the very few devoted readers I have. Since then, my average has octupled! That’s 8 times as many views as normal. My blog peaked at 56 views in one day on 12/22! So thank you to everyone that took time out of your scrolling to click on my posts!

My stats will likely go down again since I won’t be posting to FB after this series. I don’t usually post my personal blog because I’ve been bitten twice too many times by the sharks of the social media world. I enjoy writing on many different levels. Sometimes I like to stick to a topic and sometimes I like to bitch and moan about life. In the past, I probably was more personal than some were comfortable with involving certain aspects of my life. That is the primary reason I stopped posting to Facebook and sharing my voice with the people I knew because people really can be assholes, myself included.

That, however, is besides the point. This Christmas season, no matter how hard I tried, didn’t feel like Christmas. And per my unofficial poll, it was a mutual feeling throughout the small population of people I know. I attribute it to a few different things:

  • 1. The season was short. Thanksgiving was late in the month of November so Christmas really only had 3-4 weeks to happen and become everything we dream of.
  • 2. The weather. It’s been awfully mild this year. The last few years have actually been quite warm but this year we had little to no snow..anywhere.
  • And 3. This one is more personal but it just didn’t feel like Christmas at home. We didn’t put everything up this year because we moved into our apartment in November and we didn’t host my families celebration either. So it kind of felt..bleh.

I do have to say though, because of my self-mandated writing assignment, I began to think about the Christmas season outside of the box. Instead of focussing on hurrying up and buying everyone the best gifts which isn’t what Christmas is supposed to be about; I tried my best to appreciate the finer things that this holiday season has to offer. My mom being selfless and donating goods to the homeless shelter, Channing and I quietly watching a wintertime parade. Traveling to see family and seeing our nieces and nephews. It was a very nice but short holiday season.

Of course, as always, I wish I could have done more. I wish time and finances had allowed us to go to Jayde’s Christmas choir concert and to bring Duane to the Holiday Train in Thief River. I wish I could have spent some real quality time with both of my brothers and watch more Christmas-y shows. I wish we could have done a little more and gave to the poor. The great thing about all of this is that life isn’t over. There is still time to do and to give. To visit and to see. There’s more time than we even know what to do with so as long as it’s not wasted, the “I wishes” will become “I haves.”

I hope that you took time this Christmas season to enjoy it instead of stress over it. I hope that you received and gave everything that you had planned on including love, good fortune, and happiness.

As previously mentioned, I probably won’t be posting my personal blog to Facebook again for awhile unless I feel that I have a really good story or something to share simply because I don’t want to crowd peoples Facebook feeds. Feel free to comment, like, and share all you want. I really enjoy hearing your feedback. Stay tuned for an even better year then all the years so far! And thank you, again.

Thirsty Thursday.

Thirsty for water. The second day of the new year kind of feels just the same as the Thursday before. It usually does, doesn’t it?

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Twenty-fourteen is going to be the year that I find myself. To be truly happy, to enjoy the smallest of things. I don’t want to dwell on the problems and issues of the day. I’m not going to hide things in a little corner under my bed until I burst but I’m done sweating the small stuff. If other people want to lead miserable lives, than so be it.  Let them. I’ve done it long enough and I can tell you that it’s far from anything to be proud of.

I want to dive into the creative crevices of my brain and pull out dusty old junk that’s been laying around. Bring it back to life again. I want to rediscover hobbies and try ones that I’ve been just dreaming about.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to open a box of crazy but I simply am looking to be wholly and contently happy with where I am and what I’ve accomplished.

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For far too long many of us including myself beat ourselves up over the most trivial of things. I struggle with the fact on an often basis that I didn’t go back to school after obtaining my Associates Degree. I also obsess over the very obvious issue visible to the human eye. I’ve let things like this make me unhappy. I let it alter the quality of my life that I’ve been living or lack thereof. I don’t go places because I don’t want people to stare. I limit myself to enjoy concerts or art museums or anything else because of the judgmental whispers.Even though the below things might not be relatable or even connect from dot to dot, they are the beginning of my New Years “Goals.”

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Blog & Write & Write & Blog. Be honest, dive deep, and to not be afraid of anything. Blog every day, any time of the day. Blog about nothing or about everything. Just as long as it’s about something.

Crochet/Sew. This doesn’t need to be considered a thing of the past. Contrary to my first goal, this will help me disconnect which I think we all need to work on before we don’t know how to do anything without a computer of some kind.

Go Places. Get a passport. Travel. Get out of here.  Drive. See new things. It won’t be far and it  might not seem exciting but I’m going to make the most of it.

 Photography. I’d like to think that I can see things that others can’t and I  might just go ahead and continue believing that. Regardless, I’m going to use my eyes and the camera lens to remember the memories that haven’t yet happened.

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Stop And Smell The Hollyhocks. I don’t know about you but every day goes faster and faster than the day before. It might not happen every day or every week but an important goals is to appreciate everything as much as possible and take time to breathe in the air around me. 

And Lastly..For Now..

Decide And Deal With It. I’m going to make decisions I’ve been sitting on for three or more years. I’m going to make them and I’m going to stick to them.

Just like you (I hope), there are so many other things I’d like to accomplish and achieve throughout the year and the rest of my life but those will come.

Today, do something. Do something that makes you happy or proud. Do something that boosts your self-confidence. Do something that makes you feel as intelligent as you know you are. Each and every one of us needs to prove to ourselves that we are awesome before anyone else will believe it.

Here’s to you!

Guess What Day It Is!

Get it? Because it’s hump day and January 1st all rolled into one ridiculous reference to a camel focused insurance commercial. Laugh.

If you think about it, the calendar is a funny thing. An important “thing” but a funny one at that. The calendar defines us as human beings. It determines our age, the day of the week, when we should celebrate, and when we should make goals.

There’s a fuss about this thing called “New Years Resolutions” otherwise known as January 1st. So many of us decide that that’s the day that we’re going to make a change for the better. We’re going to lose weight, stop smoking; heck we might even start being nicer people!

As soon as we disappoint ourselves within hours, days, or if your lucky, weeks, we start over. Again. We always start over, give ourselves a re-do. Before we know it it’s already October and we’ve been “re-doing” for 10 months. I always start over on Sundays. See, the calendar somehow always gets pulled back into the ring.

I don’t think any of us really understand the definition of a resolution. So, since we are lucky enough to live in a world full of Wikipedia inspired statistics and Dictionary.com definitions; I’ll define it for you.

res-o-lu-tion – [rez-uh-loo-shuhn] – noun: 1. A formal expression of opinion or intention made, usually after voting, by a formal organization, a legislature, a club, or other group. 2. A decision or determination; a resolve: to make a firm resolution to do something. 3. The act determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, ect.; the act of resolving. 4. Firmness of purpose; the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute. 5. The act or process of separating into constituent or elementary parts or resolving.

Or, in other words, figuring it out. Before we go any further, I want to reassure you that this isn’t about the pros and cons of New Years Disappointments. It was simply an observation.

I think it’s inspiring to see people make such resolutions and actually follow through for more than a month. I’ve made resolutions myself and I’m doing it again this year just like the last 20 some and just like the next 70 some years. We’ll never stop making resolutions.

This year though, I want to try something different. I’m going to try and live up to goals rather than resolutions. I’m not sure that I can confidently decide or make a firm resolution to do something. But I can make goals. The way my brain works, if I make a goal; I’m able to reach for it. I can make it half way there and at least say that I attempted to make my goal. When you stop resolutioning (new word, deal with it), you have to say that you broke your resolution. People stop listening when you say “Well, I was doing really good for the first 3 weeks, then I…” They gone. All they really heard was “I’m a statistic, I failed.”

Goals seem to have stories. They have steps, mile markers, gold stars, ect. I personally would like to see someone make a goal to lose 50 pounds and through social media watch them achieve each milestone rather than someone saying my resolution is to lose weight. Okay. Why? How much? By when? What are you going to do to achieve that? Who’s your support system? If you can answer even one of those questions, than you should be making goals not resolutions.

One of my first “goals” that I’ve already 50% completed is to start a new blog. The other 50% obviously won’t be officially complete until December, 31st. (Yet, again with the calendar.)

Over the next couple days I’m going to be tweaking and updating this blog. It’ll include my goals for the year twenty fourteen, what I’m going to do to achieve them, and everything in between. I intend on writing every day no matter the circumstance. You’ll see why down the line but I don’t want you to know too much on day one. That takes away all of the mystery. I could spoil it for you because there isn’t really any mystery to be solved.

Although I’ll probably jump from point A to point B more often than not; the true reason for this blog is to find myself. I need to re-discover my passions and make new ones. I need to jump outside of the box because before I became so introverted, I was much happier with my outlook on life and the future. I want to be able to look in the mirror and see my dreams and aspirations come to life not just be figments of my imagination.

Writing is going to be my platform for figuring it out. I’ll never claim to be a grammatical savant or talented writer although I’d love to believe that but I do want to improve and find my niche both through the keyboard and in real life.

And in case I never acknowledge it from this point forward, thanks. Thanks for following me through my posts, thanks for knowing me before 2014 and after. And most of all, thanks for being the one of probably 3 people that’ll actually take the time to stay updated on this blog.

Cheers to 20-14! 

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