Mental Progress.

The old me would have binge ate all day today. But the new me has easily stuck to the healthy food that I purposely brought to work to eat. I won’t go into any kind of detail about why but today was a very eventful and stressful day.

As you may or may not know, I made a very serious choice on June 7th and that choice was to get healthy or to die. I’ve been doing very well since then. A couple of bumps like with any choice to get healthy but I’m officially down 22.6 pounds and counting. I hope to hit 25 by my next weigh in.

Before choosing to fight my obesity, I’d eat. I’d eat when I was bored, I’d eat when I was watching TV and I’d eat when I was stressed from a busy day at work or a fight with my boyfriend. I’d eat because Taco Johns was on the way to the grocery store and I’d eat because someone brought food today at the office. My religion was food above all. Above everything.

And really, it still is. The only difference between then and now is that I can control it. When I’m stressed or bored or angry or nothing…I don’t think about eating. Don’t get me wrong, it still happens sometimes. Weekends are the toughest. But I’ve gained some self-control.

3 months ago if I had a morning like today, I would have went to Hardees for lunch and then stopped at Holiday before my break was over to get a pop and a candy bar. After the afternoon I’ve had, I would have hit up McDonald’s on the way home and stuff my face before getting out of the parking to have supper with my boyfriend an hour later. Which also involved eating out about 75% of the time.

So what am I going to do to deal with today’s stress levels? I’m going to go for a long walk tonight. I wish I could go now actually. My energy is pumping and I want to be moving. I want to sweat out the annoyances and responsibilities of the day rather than hold them in by giving my heart a reason to clock out once it hits a pool of grease.

I’m no where near perfect in my choices or my physique. Imagining my goal is too hard to do at this point because it’s so far away but after a day like today, I’ve really been able to see just how far I really have come. I don’t always see progress in the mirror or even on the scale but noticing progress of the mind is one of the best signs of a positive journey that I’ve gotten to experience this far.

I know you hear this all the time by anyone that’s ever lost weight in the history of fat people but seriously, if I can make serious progress..so can you. You’re worth it.

DIY Meal/Menu Board.

This is about two weeks in the making but I’ve been unusually busy lately.
[It’s a good thing!] Enjoy! ~Ori

Now, a heads up. This is my first instructional DIY. I didn’t realize until after the fact that I should have taken more photos. I’m going to write instructions for the entire process but I apologize on steps without photos. Here we go!

Inspiration:
Pinterest of course! I don’t really have a solid color theme in my kitchen right now due to the bland white walls of apartment living so I wanted to think for the long run. I love the idea of bright bold colors for my future kitchen. So that’s what I went with.

Purpose:
As you know, I’ve been trying for my entire life to get healthy and more recently I’ve noticed that I can do just fine [food wise] during the day. Breakfast, snack, lunch. It’s when I get home that I overindulge. I often forget to take out meat from the freezer the night before or we don’t have enough groceries. Or we are just plain too lazy to cook so we go out to eat. I’m hoping this will be the solution.

What You Need:
16 x 20 painting canvas
1/2 yard of fabric
4 – 5 pieces of colored paper (to correspond with your fabric.)
2 spools of ribbon (1 wider than the other, you’ll layer them.)
8-10 clothespins
Stickers (For the days of the week. I found letters for this one but you can use actual weekdays.)
Hot glue gun and glue
Glue stick or glue pen
Notepad (About 5 1/2″ long)
X-Acto Knife (I used my boyfriends Kobalt utility knife)
Small folded box (Mini-light boxes from Christmas work perfect!)

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1. You’ll start by placing the fabric face down on the surface you’re working on. Center the canvas [also upside down] on the fabric. Cut the fabric leaving about 1.5″ to 2″ of fabric around the entire perimeter of the canvas.

IMG_52722. Taking the hot glue gun, first glue down each corner. Then glue down the top and bottom. Once you have the top and bottom glued, you can glue each side. This is where I would recommend to pull the fabric a little bit so that it is snug around the entire canvas.

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3. A.Flipping the now fabric covered canvas over, cut and position the first row of ribbon about 3 inches from the side and place it vertically. [Use the thicker ribbon first.] You’ll flip over the canvas and hot glue it to the back. Just be sure that you keep your line straight.

3. B. Once that is finished, do the exact same process with the thinner strip of ribbon. Make sure that this thinner ribbon is centered within the thicker ribbon.

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4. Cut out seven circles. These will be used for the days of the week. You might need to adjust the size and shape depending on what kind of stickers you bought.

5. Put the stickers on the the circles [or whatever shape you decided on]. Using the hot glue gun again, center the shapes with stickers on the clothespins.

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6. Leaving about 5″ open at the top of the board. Glue the the clothes pins onto the strip of ribbon that you previously attached to the board. Make sure to lay them out on the board prior to gluing to ensure that you space them evenly.

7. A. Make a menu sign! I cheated and used fancy lettering in Microsoft Word, printed, and cut out the letters. But if you’re feeling extra creative you can definitely write or draw your own menu sign.IMG_5317

7. B. Your menu sign should be about 7″ to 8″ long and 3″ or so high. Get crafty with this! I cut out the letters, glued them onto yellow paper and then glued that onto the orange paper. [Don’t glue this to the board yet.]

IMG_53188. You’ll also make a “Meal Choices” sign and a “Grocery List” sign. I won’t go into much detail with this because it will vary on what you like. I would recommend that these each take up about a 4″ long and 2″ wide space. [Don’t glue this to the board yet.]

9. A. Remember those mini-lights that you used for Christmas and you NEVER put them back in the box? Now they can come in handy! Using a ruler, measure a 2.5″ depth all the way around the box and mark with a pen.

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9. B. Using your X-Acto knife, carefully cut around the entire box so that you have a nice little cutout square. You will then take some of the thick ribbon that you used previously and cover the box. This part is a little tricky and unfortunately I don’t have an picture for it but you can check out the end result to see what it’ll look like. I lined both the inside and outside with this ribbon.

**A few things that I do not have individual pictures on can be seen below in the final product. As always, you can alter as you see fit and per your individual style and design.**

10. A. I glued two more clothes pins kitty corner on the top left hand side of the board and snapped in the menu sign.

10. B. On the right hand side of the board, I would recommend positioning out your remaining pieces which would include two signs, your note pad, and ribbon covered box. I left a space in-between the grocery list and the box and put another clothespin with a handmade ribbon glued to the top. Change it up or do the same, whichever you like.

10. C. With some left over paper, go ahead and make menu entries. Make as many as you’d like. You can make them long or short, specific or not specific. I have listed some simple ideas below. The more specific you are the more you’ll have but than it will be easy to double or triple up. Any entries that you’re not using for that week can easily be stored in your handy box. [See bottom right.]


Menu Entry Ideas: Out To Eat. Something Easy. Shake N’ Bake Pork Chops. Peas. Corn On The Cob. New Recipe. Grilled Potatoes. Spaghetti and Garlic Toast. Potato Salad. Cantaloupe. Bananas. Tuna Melts. Tomato Soup. Soup and Sandwich. Pasta Night! Grill Out. Chicken Breasts. Mashed Potatoes. Honey Ham.

Hope you enjoyed reading through and creating your first DIY menu board! The same concept can be easily used and manipulated to make a children’s chore chart or summertime activity board. I’d love to see your finished product photos. Thanks!!

Yesterday You Said Tomorrow.

9979869b8fc798974d85940c3b6f0cbeI’ve been lacking big time on my get healthy mantra. Like really really, lacking. So I decided to turn to Pinterest for some inspiration and motivation. I found a brilliant idea for a meal board and am going to pick up some supplies tonight. I can’t promise I’ll get it together this week but I have no plans for the weekend so I plan to put it together at that time.

On the other side of getting healthy, is fitness. It’s currently obsolete in my world and I have no reason or excuse that is worth coming up with. My gym clothes and shoes are nicely folded right out on the dining room table. I lay down for bed around 10:00 PM (to allow sleep and no I can’t make it any earlier) and I set my alarm for 5:00 AM. Every morning at 5:00 I hit snooze and then snooze again. Again and again and again like a redundant forget me not.

93cc588bc8f6a5c9d43e4a088a74cce5Why 5:00 AM? Well because I have to get my boyfriend to work by 6:30 and we car pool thus preventing me from pushing it off until later in the morning but still before work. And no, I will not go after work. Why would I? When the rush is unbearable and even though you’re in a no judgement zone, people still stare. I see it. Belive me, I see it.

7483a19d1fb8ccb368565aa8ca664e2dNow even though all that bologna sounds like excuses, it’s not. It’s just a summary of the day to day struggle that I find myself in. So tonight, I’ll do the same. I’ll lay down at 10:00. Set my alarm for 5:00. And hope, just hope, that my motivation, inspiration, where I want to be, who I want to be, dreamland of a fantasy will be enough for me to roll out of bed, put on my gym shoes, and get my fat ass to the damn gym.

I’m Through With Excuses.

Where does the time go? Yet again, I’ve been so sucked into my damn phone that I chose to play Candy Crush, creep Facebook, and browse Twitter rather than set all that stuff aside and focus on writing. Why can’t I willingly take a social media break? It’s exhausting. Nothing is really that interesting that I need to continually keep refreshing to see what the next person said about their day or their kid or their job.

Over the last few days or so I thought that I had some pretty decent post ideas but then by the time I was by a computer, I didn’t feel like turning it on. I’m considering investing in an actual desk. Right now, whenever I power up my laptop, I’m sitting on the couch and we all know how awkwardly we have to sit in order to be semi-comfortable and have the laptop carefully positioned so that we can see and type at the same time. Carpal tunnel anyone?

I’ve been saying for sometime now that I need to get my shit together. I’m one of the most perfectionist, motivated driven people you’ll ever meet but when it comes to my own personal, deep down, gut wrenching, life changing goals – I’ll procrastinate and make excuses like none other. The most obvious being to get healthy.

I’ve been re-reading my past posts as a type of motivation but even as I type this I have a gallon jug of water (good) and a Hugo’s doughnut (bad) sitting next to me staring in my face. The last week or so I haven’t eaten breakfast and I’ve felt so cruddy by lunch time that today I decided to chose the doughnut over nothing. Not because I love them because really, they are too sweet and sticky but I didn’t want to have my stomach be gurgling all morning. And yes, I did consciously chose it over a bowl of bland oatmeal.

What’s wrong with me? I know the exact formula it takes to get healthy but it’s not a very fun path is it? Sure, when you hit the milestones you’ll know it’s paying off and hopefully (cross my fingers) it won’t be as much of a challenge to chose oatmeal over a doughnut but we all have to get over that first hump or twelve before we can actually claim to be milestone worthy. Just because I have this [now a third of the way eaten] doughnut in front of me doesn’t mean my day is ruined. I have been consistent with my water intake and have a tuna and peas on toast planned for lunch rather than a McDonald’s maggot filled cheeseburger. Go me!

Update: You’ll be happy to know that I ended up throwing the rest of my doughnut away.

My Motivation.

Don’t roll your eyes or anything but I’ve been thinking about joining a gym again. I don’t have any master plan other than a potential regular schedule in compared to my unorganized life that I’ve accepted over the last year and a half or so.

Since my other half will be starting his new job soon and we’ll still be carpooling; we’ll both have the opportunity to have a little more consistency than we are used to. The only “downfall” I foresee is that his starting time is 5:00 AM. Holy shit right? But instead of taking that as a negative; I’d like to pull a 360 and consider it a positive. It’s not like I’ll have the option to sleep in since we share a vehicle. I’ll already have to be up and driven across town before the sun is up. By the time I get home; I can’t really see myself going back to bed for another hour. Once I’m up, I usually stay up so why not take advantage of it? We’ll probably be going to bed earlier considering the job change so it shouldn’t be difficult to make a routine of dropping him off, going to the gym, and starting my day. By the time work starts at 8; I would have gotten the “not so fun” stuff out of the way already and I probably would actually make time for breakfast.

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Camping In Warroad.

All that sounds like a wonderful idea but can I do it? Thanks to the go-getting motivating people that I’ve come across, I know that the answer is yes as long as you make a point to do it. Make a point to be motivated and go to the gym. Make a point of exercising and eating breakfast. I’ll call Anytime Fitness tomorrow and we’ll go from there. I already re-ordered my Shakelogy last week so that should be coming soon. I have a few things in the near future that if I think about them, can give me motivation:

My brothers graduation in May. For the 3rd time in 6 years have some extended family coming up. I’ll also be going to my old high school where I know I’ll see some people that I graduated with. I’m over half way to my 10 year reunion and don’t want to be the person that already went downhill and doesn’t have getting married or having kids to blame. I want to look good, damnit.

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The Brewster Clan.

Family vacation in June. We’ll be going on a camping vacation at the end of June with my family, aunts, uncles, and cousins. We’ll be swimming and walking, canoeing, and sunbathing. I don’t want to let how I feel about myself prevent me from enjoying my time. I want to be a part of the photographic memories and not just the person taking the pictures to avoid the other side of the camera. I want to feel fit so that I don’t get winded walking on trails.

 

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Our anniversary in July. We’ll be coming up on 6 years and even though I know my other half loves me no matter what; I do want him to have some beautiful arm candy on the celebration of 72 months. So often couples fall into a boring ol’ routine after being together for a long time and we never dress up or go out much anymore. One of the hidden reasons that I don’t actively offer fun nights out is because I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin.

School. I’ve been thinking about it as mentioned in a previous post and although I might gear myself more towards the online studies to begin with; I would like to attend night school and not that I have to look good for anyone; I still want to feel good about myself and look nice. I want to feel comfortable sitting next to anyone in class or choosing a partner for a project. I want to know that I can confidently walk up to someone and strike a conversation. This whole “no friends” thing is caused by me feeling like a gross giant next to anyone that I’m around so I pull the shy quiet card rather than the fun, talkative person that I know I’ve lost touch with.

So, it might not seem much but I’m going to use those to give me motivation. To help me drive the extra block to the gym and make my shake in the mornings. I’m going to use that to pack my lunch instead of grabbing McDonalds durning the noon hour. I’m going to do this and I’m going to do this right.

What gets you motivated? I would love to hear from someone that has been overweight and overcome it. How they found motivation or what clicked inside their heads to get them going? Although I appreciate and accept any and all motivating words; I often find it difficult to take advice from someone that had always been thin but wasn’t happy with the lack of muscle they had or something. It’s difficult for me to relate when they haven’t gone through the same pain and disappointment in myself that I have. So, are you out there? I’d love to hear from you!

I’ve Fallen (ill) And I Can’t Get Up.

Friday.
Really short post tonight due to some sort of flu/cold epidemic that just keeps getting worse. I haven’t been feeling well all week and have been focusing on sleep, fluids, and vitamin C.

Keep warm and stay healthy.

Saturday.
After sleeping as often as a newborn for the last few days, I’m finally starting to feel better. I hope I’m not in some kind of temporary remission just because I haven’t gone anywhere or gotten dressed yet but I do feel alive and energized.

Even though I might have gotten the tip of the flu bug going around, I still will never get the flu shot. I’m sure many people have a whole books worth of lectures and reasons why I and everyone else should get it but I don’t see the point.

To start off on the right foot, I have no medical experience or basis for my reasoning. I just personally know people that get as sick as dogs due to a reaction of the shot. So what are we avoiding? Sure the flu can be more dangerous than the shots side effects but thats “can” not “is.”

Regardless, to anyone experiencing fatigue, extreme body aches, cramps, and headaches – fill up on vitamin C and sleep. You’ll feel better in no time.

Here’s to a once again working immune system!