Yesterday You Said Tomorrow.

9979869b8fc798974d85940c3b6f0cbeI’ve been lacking big time on my get healthy mantra. Like really really, lacking. So I decided to turn to Pinterest for some inspiration and motivation. I found a brilliant idea for a meal board and am going to pick up some supplies tonight. I can’t promise I’ll get it together this week but I have no plans for the weekend so I plan to put it together at that time.

On the other side of getting healthy, is fitness. It’s currently obsolete in my world and I have no reason or excuse that is worth coming up with. My gym clothes and shoes are nicely folded right out on the dining room table. I lay down for bed around 10:00 PM (to allow sleep and no I can’t make it any earlier) and I set my alarm for 5:00 AM. Every morning at 5:00 I hit snooze and then snooze again. Again and again and again like a redundant forget me not.

93cc588bc8f6a5c9d43e4a088a74cce5Why 5:00 AM? Well because I have to get my boyfriend to work by 6:30 and we car pool thus preventing me from pushing it off until later in the morning but still before work. And no, I will not go after work. Why would I? When the rush is unbearable and even though you’re in a no judgement zone, people still stare. I see it. Belive me, I see it.

7483a19d1fb8ccb368565aa8ca664e2dNow even though all that bologna sounds like excuses, it’s not. It’s just a summary of the day to day struggle that I find myself in. So tonight, I’ll do the same. I’ll lay down at 10:00. Set my alarm for 5:00. And hope, just hope, that my motivation, inspiration, where I want to be, who I want to be, dreamland of a fantasy will be enough for me to roll out of bed, put on my gym shoes, and get my fat ass to the damn gym.

Who Inspires You?

It’s hard to fathom the amount of inspiring people that this world holds. Although I don’t have a lot of people in my inner circle of life; the people I’ve met along the way are all different kinds of inspirational.

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In my journey to adulthood I’ve met people that have had cancer and survived it – multiple times. I know a chick that never let her size prevent her from having the time of her life. I went to college with a girl would one day go on to spread awareness about the victimized within the Catholic church. I know mothers and fathers with beautiful (on the inside and out) children born with disabilities and embraced it. I know LGBT men and women that have stood up to and defended themselves in the presence of bigots. I’m in love with a man that was forced to stay strong through a very painful criminal case. I know a woman that could have easily died while giving childbirth. I know a kid that dropped everything to better his life and succeeded in doing so.

There are so many people that have passed through my life, in what some cases only seemed like a two minute span, but that doesn’t make them any less inspirational. If you demonstrate any quality from strength to power to controlling your own life to never giving up than you too are an inspiration to many. There is no predetermined mold for what will define you in life and there never will be. But if you face your fears and never give up, you’ll form your own mold and path in life in whichever way you choose.

The people that have come and gone in my life continually teach me to be kind and empathetic. They teach me to reach for the unreachable and strive for the best. They show me on a regular basis that they matter and so should I. They prove the discouraging wrong and stand up to what’s right. They hold the key to the many definitions of what I strive to be.

Who inspires you?