1st Day Of Christmas: Oh, Christmas Tree

IMG_7985Beginning the 12 days of Christmas I only found it fitting that I’d introduce you to my Christmas tree. For the past five years I’ve accumulated quite an assortment of blue and silver Christmas decor but once Christmas clearance was in full swing last December, I decided to change it up and opted for a more “traditional” color scheme. You probably can’t really tell by the photo but I chose reds, golds, and greens – Christmas colors of course.

Unfortunately, I haven’t had much Christmas spirit yet this year. Usually our apartment is dolled up floor to ceiling; kitchen to bathroom in Christmas but not this year. So far we’ve only managed to put up the tree, a couple decorations, and a string of lights.

I think part of it has to do with the struggle we had to move and get settled into a new city so quickly. Three months ago we hadn’t even been planning to move and here we are. Settled in (kind of) two hours away, new jobs, new people, new life. I really do have to give Channing a pat on the back though…we’ve been through a lot of unmentionable shit (for lack of a better word) over the years but boy that man will do anything for me. We could have very easily stayed in Grand Forks. We both had great paying jobs, enjoyed the people we knew, had a comfortable living situation but it wasn’t our “dream.” We didn’t see ourselves planting our tree there.

It was definitely a financial risk moving to Bemidji for both of us but we’re bound and determined to rise above it in order to pursue our dreams. And before you laugh at that last sentence – Bemidji wasn’t our dream either. We don’t know exactly where we want to grow old at but we knew for sure, above anything, that it wasn’t Grand Forks.

If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude. ~Maya Angelou

And we did.

Another part of feeling out of the Christmas spirit this holiday season is knowing that not a soul will be coming to visit us through the holidays. We won’t be hosting Christmas this year which I’ve come to terms with but the way that certain things have been gone about really has given me a bitter taste in my mouth. That’s my problem though – there’s a point when we all need to be the bigger person and watch how the acorns fall rather then picking them off ourselves.

To help me fully get into the holiday spirit this year, I’ve decided to do this “12 Days Of Christmas” blog series. I believe I explained it a bit more in my previous post but that’s day one! I’d love to see your Christmas tree pictures and hear how you’ve gotten into the Christmas-y mood this year!

Realization.

I’m subscribed to Goodreads Quote Of The Day. It comes via email each and every day. Every once and awhile, I’ll come across a good quote and share it on here as a status or tweet it giving credit to the author of course.

Today though, this one seemed to relate just a bit more than usual and I wanted to give it and the author a little more credit than my typical status update.

I am not eccentric. It’s just that I am more alive than most people. I am an unpopular electric eel set in a pond of catfish. ~Edith Sitwell

This is so fitting. So, so fitting for me. It’s an analogy of course and can probably be dissected in a multitude of ways by hundreds of people. I don’t consider myself set in the normal realm of life. I don’t feel like I have very many similar monumental moments in life like so many others do. However, I’m not really a trendsetter either. I’m not a rebel. I’m not by definition a leader or a follower. So, in short, I’m different (eccentric) but I’m not that different (not eccentric).

I tend to think too much and live too little. I’m introverted in the way that I can sit and observe people for hours and not say one word yet..I can’t shut up when I have something to say. I feel like my favorite songs were somehow written just for me and no one can feel them the way that I can. I care and love deeper than most people should and I’m more alive than I imagine anyone else could ever be. My thoughts are deeper than I have words to express them and my dreams are higher than the clouds are in the sky.

I’m an unpopular electric eel set in a pond of catfish.

“Today is a brand new day. A fresh start. Replace any negativity with positivity. Think happy thoughts. Exercise. Drink lots of water. Fill your body with fuel. Healthy is happy. Inspire yourself. Create. Laugh. Play. Love. Learn. Give someone a compliment. Make a new friend. Do a random act of kindness. It creates good karma. Take chances and finally start living life to its fullest. But no matter what’s thrown at you today, smile and remember, tomorrow’s always a fresh new start.” – Author Unknown