Series Finale.

I just wanted to take a quick second to say thank you to anyone and everyone that checked out my blog over the last few weeks since I began my “12 Days of Christmas” series. Before the series began, I was averaging a whopping 3 views per post thanks to the very few devoted readers I have. Since then, my average has octupled! That’s 8 times as many views as normal. My blog peaked at 56 views in one day on 12/22! So thank you to everyone that took time out of your scrolling to click on my posts!

My stats will likely go down again since I won’t be posting to FB after this series. I don’t usually post my personal blog because I’ve been bitten twice too many times by the sharks of the social media world. I enjoy writing on many different levels. Sometimes I like to stick to a topic and sometimes I like to bitch and moan about life. In the past, I probably was more personal than some were comfortable with involving certain aspects of my life. That is the primary reason I stopped posting to Facebook and sharing my voice with the people I knew because people really can be assholes, myself included.

That, however, is besides the point. This Christmas season, no matter how hard I tried, didn’t feel like Christmas. And per my unofficial poll, it was a mutual feeling throughout the small population of people I know. I attribute it to a few different things:

  • 1. The season was short. Thanksgiving was late in the month of November so Christmas really only had 3-4 weeks to happen and become everything we dream of.
  • 2. The weather. It’s been awfully mild this year. The last few years have actually been quite warm but this year we had little to no snow..anywhere.
  • And 3. This one is more personal but it just didn’t feel like Christmas at home. We didn’t put everything up this year because we moved into our apartment in November and we didn’t host my families celebration either. So it kind of felt..bleh.

I do have to say though, because of my self-mandated writing assignment, I began to think about the Christmas season outside of the box. Instead of focussing on hurrying up and buying everyone the best gifts which isn’t what Christmas is supposed to be about; I tried my best to appreciate the finer things that this holiday season has to offer. My mom being selfless and donating goods to the homeless shelter, Channing and I quietly watching a wintertime parade. Traveling to see family and seeing our nieces and nephews. It was a very nice but short holiday season.

Of course, as always, I wish I could have done more. I wish time and finances had allowed us to go to Jayde’s Christmas choir concert and to bring Duane to the Holiday Train in Thief River. I wish I could have spent some real quality time with both of my brothers and watch more Christmas-y shows. I wish we could have done a little more and gave to the poor. The great thing about all of this is that life isn’t over. There is still time to do and to give. To visit and to see. There’s more time than we even know what to do with so as long as it’s not wasted, the “I wishes” will become “I haves.”

I hope that you took time this Christmas season to enjoy it instead of stress over it. I hope that you received and gave everything that you had planned on including love, good fortune, and happiness.

As previously mentioned, I probably won’t be posting my personal blog to Facebook again for awhile unless I feel that I have a really good story or something to share simply because I don’t want to crowd peoples Facebook feeds. Feel free to comment, like, and share all you want. I really enjoy hearing your feedback. Stay tuned for an even better year then all the years so far! And thank you, again.

1st Day Of Christmas: Oh, Christmas Tree

IMG_7985Beginning the 12 days of Christmas I only found it fitting that I’d introduce you to my Christmas tree. For the past five years I’ve accumulated quite an assortment of blue and silver Christmas decor but once Christmas clearance was in full swing last December, I decided to change it up and opted for a more “traditional” color scheme. You probably can’t really tell by the photo but I chose reds, golds, and greens – Christmas colors of course.

Unfortunately, I haven’t had much Christmas spirit yet this year. Usually our apartment is dolled up floor to ceiling; kitchen to bathroom in Christmas but not this year. So far we’ve only managed to put up the tree, a couple decorations, and a string of lights.

I think part of it has to do with the struggle we had to move and get settled into a new city so quickly. Three months ago we hadn’t even been planning to move and here we are. Settled in (kind of) two hours away, new jobs, new people, new life. I really do have to give Channing a pat on the back though…we’ve been through a lot of unmentionable shit (for lack of a better word) over the years but boy that man will do anything for me. We could have very easily stayed in Grand Forks. We both had great paying jobs, enjoyed the people we knew, had a comfortable living situation but it wasn’t our “dream.” We didn’t see ourselves planting our tree there.

It was definitely a financial risk moving to Bemidji for both of us but we’re bound and determined to rise above it in order to pursue our dreams. And before you laugh at that last sentence – Bemidji wasn’t our dream either. We don’t know exactly where we want to grow old at but we knew for sure, above anything, that it wasn’t Grand Forks.

If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude. ~Maya Angelou

And we did.

Another part of feeling out of the Christmas spirit this holiday season is knowing that not a soul will be coming to visit us through the holidays. We won’t be hosting Christmas this year which I’ve come to terms with but the way that certain things have been gone about really has given me a bitter taste in my mouth. That’s my problem though – there’s a point when we all need to be the bigger person and watch how the acorns fall rather then picking them off ourselves.

To help me fully get into the holiday spirit this year, I’ve decided to do this “12 Days Of Christmas” blog series. I believe I explained it a bit more in my previous post but that’s day one! I’d love to see your Christmas tree pictures and hear how you’ve gotten into the Christmas-y mood this year!

A New Series.

There is so much that I want to write about about and at the very same time there’s nothing to say. I’m a thinker. My gears are constantly turning. It’s like my brain is shape-shifting in ways that I don’t even know how to explain.

Oh, were the days when you could walk around with a hand held recorder to record all your thoughts. I mean, we still have it sure – it’s called a phone. In order to record anything you have to swipe to unlock, swipe to find the app, wait for your phone OR the app to stall and then load…do I need to continue or do you get the point?

My newest thought was to do a “12 Days of Christmas” series on my blog. When I looked that up, I came across some new information. The “12 Days of Christmas” actually starts on Christmas Day and runs through January 5th. Am I the only one to not have known that? My entire life I was under the assumption that December 25th was the last day, day twelve.

Sticking to my original assumption though, I’m doing it my way. Day 1 will be December 14th because that only makes sense – the 12 days leading up to Christmas. Obviously.

I have a few reasons for pursuing this. The first being that I’ve been so busy trying to manage my second blog that this one has kind of taken an undeserved hit. In a perfect situation, I’d obviously have only one blog. One central location for readers to find me. But that’s not the case. I have so much invested into this blog that I don’t want to let it go and I won’t be posting any of my random, no subject rants (like this one) on there anyways.

I have (well had) a few plans for this blog to begin with because I haven’t been making a very good effort to write. Writers block doesn’t seem to be a problem..Netflix does. Orange Is The New Black anyone? Talk about an addiction. I finished it in less then a week and now I’m on to my next fix: House of Cards.

Damnit, Netflix.

So stay tuned everyone. The self-required “12 Days of Christmas” series begins on December 14th.